DEPRESSED

                                                                 As I ink this poem
this is what I begin to feel,
                      WHY?  I can't explain
feeling those ole thoughs come over me
                                                               DEPRESSION, SUCIDE, AND DRUGS
                                                                 

short  bitter sweet and to the point I'm simply depressed

I DON'T KNOW!

                                       what happened to the young girl you saw once before,
                                                                I guess she's gone
                                                                                 I DON'T KNOW!
                                                                              who's the person on the big screen,
                                                                                 maybe she just forgot that certain song
has she lost all of her mind not knowing her own reflection
               if not then why is she always wandering around second guessing
her name, age, appearance and behavior.                                  I DON'T KNOW!
                                                                                               as I stare with a puzzled look pasted upon my face how can this be?......
                                                   The child staring in the mirror is non other than...
                                                                                            ME                  

Reciting A Poem

Lethargic

the spotlight makes me nervous searching for a purpose
back stage, I open my mind as if my mind were a guar
Empty
the negative seeds that might cause future harm then
Smoke
away my stage my stage fright
Thousands of faces lingering on my words
even those, quite absurd Simply profound yet shy as a feline sly with my words
didn't know how  different it could be in the
LIMELIGHT
as the magic ends they chant my name

BILLIE BILLIE BILLIE

a feeling I will compare not this was my chance and I've marked my spot
 
I was
under the influence reciting a poem

JAMES EDWARD ROACH

                                                                 3 years seems so short when we spent it together
                                   as if separated at birth we share the same thoughts,and ideas                                                    It turns on my interests
                                                            At my lows you are my high.. the lexapro pills I've popped the
                                                              Fat Purp blunt I've smoked
 you allow me to enter a world unknown
                                                                                                 
                                                                   JAMES EDWARD ROACH
                                                                                                 

                                                                                                   The secret present given to me by the heavens

                                                                                                    As a replacement for the
JAMES ALVIN ROBINSON
I lost while younger

          Comforting me while I stain your White T with my

PURPLE TEARS

                                       Electrically attracted you've done it all for me and for that I'm humble

A young man as sweet as you

                                       makes me blush

Allowing me to simply be me

                                                               JAMES EDWARD ROACH !

the name that pleases me to pen

                                                           I will always feel safe in your arms

                                                                                                                        Loving you forever until the very end of time

                                                                       Because you've always been There to guide me I'm so glad that your simply my

                                                                     ♥ JAMES EDWARD ROACH♥

                                                                                                                 

Sealed w/ A Kiss

Stimulated sences sex on the mind

                                      staring at me with thoes Kalidescope eyes

Close the door behind us,Let the games begin

                                                        Im going to make this the whole night

so just relax...and close your eyes

                                                           Stroking your dick hard

                                                                                         as you finger me wet

                                                                      whispering '' Your going to be my best victum yet"

"what are you going to me?"

touching my Legs...Chest...Thights

                                                                                      kissing me softly looking into my eyes

                                                              Play with my clit!

while I suck and bite your...neck

                                                   my body numb eyes rolled back

                             in your ear moaning "AH DONT BABE PLEASE!"

harder you penatrate in                                  forming goose bumps all over my skin

                                   are those the scratch markes on your back?

                                                                                           Im such an innocent little feline I don't know how to react

                                                           To the sex its so rought the mirror recording us shatters

Switching Positions 

                                Sucking you on all fours

I given what you wanted

                                     NOW YOU WANT MORE !

"STOP GET OFF YOUR SERIOUSLY HURTING ME !"

                                                                                               It's to much for me to handle ... IT'S TIME YOU DIE

                                      unbeknownst to you I've poisned your tea

a smile plastered on my face filled with glee

                                                             Watching you grow paler and paler barley uttering the words" You're a monster" laying there upon my floor

                                                                   My first time with you I will dearly miss

                                                                                     on your dead corpse

your cheek here is a deadly plum

                                                                          KISS♥

Naked

Felling naked when around you




but not in a sence of not being clothed,but in the sence of my heart being exposed...by you

yes I'm as naked as a blank sheet o paper

scared and shy to be written upon

embarrassed for if only you had x-ray glasses

you could see into my heart

then use it to my advantage

sly as a fox you are creeping into the forest of my past to find my kryptonite

so tell me smart guy,yes tell me why

do I feel so naked?

Im scared to be honest but not scared of you...scared of my heart being stolen by you

because eventhough I'm immortal and shall never die

still I want my heart as a whole insted of a whole lot of peices

you make me feel naked!



I cannot take it

understanding nothing loosing my train of thought

I give up take my heart is your but please don't cause I've never had this feeling...the feeling of being

naked!

Drifted Away

Tid-bits,scattered pieces of our memories

cover the floor as i shred them,

everything happened so fast i wish i could have hit rewind...just to fully understand

                                                                       i miss the little things you'd say to make my day brighter,always telling me when your angry that I'm angry to be a lover not a fighter.

                                                                                                         It's hard to quit you,for you are my addiction..daily your name lingers in my head "Nothing will separate us" or so you said

                                                           A poem as sad as this cries for me,I'm depressed and upset

                                                                                    WHY CANT YOU SEE!

am i transparent am i to blame this poem is for you...i miss you my best friend

                                                                        JAMES

PURPLE

 A POEM BY ANY OTHER NAME WOULD'T SMELL AS SWEET

AS THE ONES I TYPE...CATCHING MY FLOW LIKE MY FRUIT IS RIPE

 EAR BUDS IN LIGHTS DIMMED  EYES CLOSED

AM I HIGH,WELL NOBODY KNOWS THE TROUBLE I'VE SEEN AND MAYBE JUS MAYBE THE GRASS ISN'T

GREEN

ON THE OTHER SIDE

A COLOR JUST AS ROYAL AS I IT CAPTURES MY SOUL AS IT REACHES MY EYE

IM A SUPER SLUTH YES IM STUPID SLY

MY WEPONS ARE THE COLOR PURPLE >=)

THE NOT SO HAPPY ENDING ♥♥♥

The games begin when the moon is lit

becoming a hungry vampire, you were my prey

this was our

NOCTURNAL PLAY

Aroused following my hands place at my waist

ole spice, passion, and sweat starts to fill your room

stripped and intertwined, loosing all of my mind

caressing and kissing hitting never missing

Feeling so good yet, I never understood the meaning

of the word abstinence sex is my drug

bathing  in your ecstasy, pulling back while  thrusting

tingling all over, my skin screaming softly like a soldier nope I never told ya...

I'M DOUBLE JOINTED

THROBBING PULSATIONS

is this how you act when the moon is out

All my worries have simply taken flight cause this is our

NOCTURNAL PLAY

the hours pass and I become sore yet my body still craves

MORE AND MORE!

grabbing your hand saying "follow me" now on the table your a monster!

the heat of the night melts the moon into the sun

not speaking of it its sealed with a kiss

oh so yuo thought we were finished?

secertly posining your tea and in an instant your eyes close
I never wanted my heart to be exposed
I loved you saying good bye from night to day
SIMPLY THIS WAS OUR NOCTURNAL PLAY ♥

FROM A TO Z

The alphabet and I have alot in common...for you see each letter in the alphabet describes me

A Abra kadabra I've penned this poem amusing my audience with my magical abilities using only my pen constantly making enemies.

B my body and brain connected as one both filled with unspoken words,unfilled prescription bottles and dreams that aren't being tempted again.

C For Chris the man my mom married for reasons beyond my knowing.

D dis nasty feeling inside of my stomach

E for evil the way it seduces me

F fuck them ALL! I just wanna be free

G got weed if so pass the blunt

H hush please be quiet I'm hunting a pesky white rabbit

I for I simply see things before they happen I'm tormenting the world while your busy napping

J just simply killing all of my haters from west to east

K Kermit Burt Dawson Sr. I wish you would rest in peace

L those lips I love to kiss my first and only wiping my tears as they fall loving you cause together we went through it all

M for mother a word I'm not found of but she did give birth

N NEVER EVER backing down I'm to damn stubborn to

O for overdosing on my fantasy nothing will ever be the same again

P pain trapped inside of my head still having nothing to say everything has been said

Q for question marks popping up inside of my head

R Robinson my original last name that stores history

S for suicide my favorite word can you guess why

T for Taja always and forever

U not understanding why you and I can't be together

V for both of my favorites violets and violent

W for sometimes wishing for nothing but silents

X x-rays never lie my mother broke my arm

AND.........

Z zip the body bag I shall never see the dawn

This is me from A to Z

Committing Suicide

I can't stand this

Tipping my hat and kissing the world good-bye

for I grow mad and bored with life

the sex between Lucifer and I has made me what I am

MAD!

he is possessing me to do my last trick

SUICIDE

fearful I'm not...as a young one Immortality kissed my cheek

call me what I am

MAD HATTER

simply going nuts but it doesn't matter

the show will go on!

remaining on a slow trip to hell

take a look at my face you could tell

I simply don't give a damn,

this is the feeling of suicide

so I bid you adieu and tip my hat

kissing the world good-bye

this is the feeling of

SUICIDE! :)

B still my h3art

''BE STILL MY HEART!''

shouting as I attempt to decease the movement in my chest

yes I gave it a rest,for you see I also believed in the feeling of love

to feel like no other feeling can be put above

guessing that you've rekindled

the dead feeling its you I shall blame

I shall paint a Rose BLACK then give it your name

carressing you as you carress me

is this real?

boy I wish I had the guts to kill

for you see you would be my first victim...then

I shall follow

DANIEL you make me feel oh so bitter sweet to sallow

how I wish our kisses would never end

BE STILL MY HEART!

you've made me go completely mad

is this true...are you the best thing I've ever had?

you a puzzle consisting of a thousand peices

don't worry this is a wrap-up of my thesis

making me feel oh so bitter sweet to sallow

BE STILL MY HEART!

Poems

A poem about poems

yes I've simply gone mad! but I'm sure you knew that.

Limerick,Quatrain and Haiku

nope I'm not writing this free verse for you

this is simply for me to test my insanity

and to see if I've mastered the art of confusion

poetry sorta flows through me allowing me to reach the unreachable

truly unbelievable creating these words unheard of

A poem about poems

YES I'VE SIMPLY GONE MAD BUT I'M SURE YOU KNEW THAT

Only Between Us

Curious,willfull,and determined Iam ...seeking someone like you to become so into me

A curly haired teddy bear

with a name simple and timeless

getting me wet just the same
Billi3 yes Billi3

the name you love along with the girl that gets you hard in secounds

kissing,hugging and touching

3squire!
                                           you are a sweetie to me

Abnormal I am for you see together we can do no wrong...or maybe

we can

so to an 3squire simply from a BILLI3

damn you for making me feel this way...normal

always and forever I will be your sexy emo kitty known simply as

BILLI3

Secrets Inside

Im the lock...so where is the key?
won't someone dare to unlock me?

Simply to reveal the thoughts that reside in my head

stareing at the cealing while counting sheep in my bed

creativity moves quickly

I'm the lock...so where is the key?

WON'T SOMEONE DARE TO UNLOCK ME!?!

Tyriyelle Bannister

Tyriyelle Bannister
the magical enchanter casting your spell upon me
poem number two me writting am I yours to control? or am I simply mad !?!
My big sis
uncontrolable yet so adorable making me feel like a bowl of soup
all warm inside

simply you're my

TYRIYELLE BANNISTER>.<

What i'm feeling now

As my temperature rises

I slowly loose my insanity,watching myself change from

a TAJA TO A BILLI3 eyes resimbling those of

SATAN

sadness shows upon my face while dimlights surround me

dissapointment follows me without warning

as I slowly type this poem my tears fall upon the keys...should I be angry with myself?

how does it feel to be happy?

typing to avoid the world

I carved > this in my hand while crying with my door closed

so yes the meaning of sadness is a picture of me the monster that won't hide in your closet but will steal your T.V cause I'm

BILLI3

Dear, Anonymous

January 7,2010

Dear, Anonymous...I'm sad

for you see I desperately want you

to reveal yourself to me,

constant questions run about in my head

Anonymous and it takes a toll upon me

how do you know me? and why does my life interests you so?

mattering not for you see you came into my life simply by fate

your my unknown angel

because you allow me to understand the understandable

writting to you to allow you to feel how I feel inside

cause sometimes I can be such a

MR.HIDE!

the monster with a good heart inside

im writting to you because never the less even if your a stalker

your my bitter sweet anonymous

PINK♥

Yes I admit it

I FEEL PINK!

YUCKY >.<
I can't believe I'm typing this

and yet I haven't stopped


                                              all mushy inside feeling love for the first time

not regretting the choices I've made opening my

heart

for the feeling of pink to creep in

yucky eyeshadow...yucky lip gloss

I'm such a girl, yep a pink chick

traded my football for a skirt and my high tops for high heels

Sugar,spice and everything nice

I admit it I FEEL PINK....
YUCK >.<

OUR MEMORIES

GROWING up wasn't easy for me without a mommy

but we managed

Rest In Peace super dad

forever will you be in my heart

7 years old you and I were wrestling

I fell down the stairs and broke my arm

13 years old you caught me smoking your joint...then sat down to join me

memories of you make me want to cry even though you didn't want see tears coming from my eyes

14 years old

August 20,2008

that's when you died

now I'm 15 daddy yes your little monster is all grown up

still messing up but as you said with failure come success

playing sports was fun cause I was always the champ

hahahahahahah so your the CHUMP!

My quarter back dad these are all of our memories