DEPRESSED

                                                                 As I ink this poem
this is what I begin to feel,
                      WHY?  I can't explain
feeling those ole thoughs come over me
                                                               DEPRESSION, SUCIDE, AND DRUGS
                                                                 

short  bitter sweet and to the point I'm simply depressed

I DON'T KNOW!

                                       what happened to the young girl you saw once before,
                                                                I guess she's gone
                                                                                 I DON'T KNOW!
                                                                              who's the person on the big screen,
                                                                                 maybe she just forgot that certain song
has she lost all of her mind not knowing her own reflection
               if not then why is she always wandering around second guessing
her name, age, appearance and behavior.                                  I DON'T KNOW!
                                                                                               as I stare with a puzzled look pasted upon my face how can this be?......
                                                   The child staring in the mirror is non other than...
                                                                                            ME                  

Reciting A Poem

Lethargic

the spotlight makes me nervous searching for a purpose
back stage, I open my mind as if my mind were a guar
Empty
the negative seeds that might cause future harm then
Smoke
away my stage my stage fright
Thousands of faces lingering on my words
even those, quite absurd Simply profound yet shy as a feline sly with my words
didn't know how  different it could be in the
LIMELIGHT
as the magic ends they chant my name

BILLIE BILLIE BILLIE

a feeling I will compare not this was my chance and I've marked my spot
 
I was
under the influence reciting a poem

JAMES EDWARD ROACH

                                                                 3 years seems so short when we spent it together
                                   as if separated at birth we share the same thoughts,and ideas                                                    It turns on my interests
                                                            At my lows you are my high.. the lexapro pills I've popped the
                                                              Fat Purp blunt I've smoked
 you allow me to enter a world unknown
                                                                                                 
                                                                   JAMES EDWARD ROACH
                                                                                                 

                                                                                                   The secret present given to me by the heavens

                                                                                                    As a replacement for the
JAMES ALVIN ROBINSON
I lost while younger

          Comforting me while I stain your White T with my

PURPLE TEARS

                                       Electrically attracted you've done it all for me and for that I'm humble

A young man as sweet as you

                                       makes me blush

Allowing me to simply be me

                                                               JAMES EDWARD ROACH !

the name that pleases me to pen

                                                           I will always feel safe in your arms

                                                                                                                        Loving you forever until the very end of time

                                                                       Because you've always been There to guide me I'm so glad that your simply my

                                                                     ♥ JAMES EDWARD ROACH♥

                                                                                                                 

Sealed w/ A Kiss

Stimulated sences sex on the mind

                                      staring at me with thoes Kalidescope eyes

Close the door behind us,Let the games begin

                                                        Im going to make this the whole night

so just relax...and close your eyes

                                                           Stroking your dick hard

                                                                                         as you finger me wet

                                                                      whispering '' Your going to be my best victum yet"

"what are you going to me?"

touching my Legs...Chest...Thights

                                                                                      kissing me softly looking into my eyes

                                                              Play with my clit!

while I suck and bite your...neck

                                                   my body numb eyes rolled back

                             in your ear moaning "AH DONT BABE PLEASE!"

harder you penatrate in                                  forming goose bumps all over my skin

                                   are those the scratch markes on your back?

                                                                                           Im such an innocent little feline I don't know how to react

                                                           To the sex its so rought the mirror recording us shatters

Switching Positions 

                                Sucking you on all fours

I given what you wanted

                                     NOW YOU WANT MORE !

"STOP GET OFF YOUR SERIOUSLY HURTING ME !"

                                                                                               It's to much for me to handle ... IT'S TIME YOU DIE

                                      unbeknownst to you I've poisned your tea

a smile plastered on my face filled with glee

                                                             Watching you grow paler and paler barley uttering the words" You're a monster" laying there upon my floor

                                                                   My first time with you I will dearly miss

                                                                                     on your dead corpse

your cheek here is a deadly plum

                                                                          KISS♥

Naked

Felling naked when around you




but not in a sence of not being clothed,but in the sence of my heart being exposed...by you

yes I'm as naked as a blank sheet o paper

scared and shy to be written upon

embarrassed for if only you had x-ray glasses

you could see into my heart

then use it to my advantage

sly as a fox you are creeping into the forest of my past to find my kryptonite

so tell me smart guy,yes tell me why

do I feel so naked?

Im scared to be honest but not scared of you...scared of my heart being stolen by you

because eventhough I'm immortal and shall never die

still I want my heart as a whole insted of a whole lot of peices

you make me feel naked!



I cannot take it

understanding nothing loosing my train of thought

I give up take my heart is your but please don't cause I've never had this feeling...the feeling of being

naked!

Drifted Away

Tid-bits,scattered pieces of our memories

cover the floor as i shred them,

everything happened so fast i wish i could have hit rewind...just to fully understand

                                                                       i miss the little things you'd say to make my day brighter,always telling me when your angry that I'm angry to be a lover not a fighter.

                                                                                                         It's hard to quit you,for you are my addiction..daily your name lingers in my head "Nothing will separate us" or so you said

                                                           A poem as sad as this cries for me,I'm depressed and upset

                                                                                    WHY CANT YOU SEE!

am i transparent am i to blame this poem is for you...i miss you my best friend

                                                                        JAMES

PURPLE

 A POEM BY ANY OTHER NAME WOULD'T SMELL AS SWEET

AS THE ONES I TYPE...CATCHING MY FLOW LIKE MY FRUIT IS RIPE

 EAR BUDS IN LIGHTS DIMMED  EYES CLOSED

AM I HIGH,WELL NOBODY KNOWS THE TROUBLE I'VE SEEN AND MAYBE JUS MAYBE THE GRASS ISN'T

GREEN

ON THE OTHER SIDE

A COLOR JUST AS ROYAL AS I IT CAPTURES MY SOUL AS IT REACHES MY EYE

IM A SUPER SLUTH YES IM STUPID SLY

MY WEPONS ARE THE COLOR PURPLE >=)

THE NOT SO HAPPY ENDING ♥♥♥

The games begin when the moon is lit

becoming a hungry vampire, you were my prey

this was our

NOCTURNAL PLAY

Aroused following my hands place at my waist

ole spice, passion, and sweat starts to fill your room

stripped and intertwined, loosing all of my mind

caressing and kissing hitting never missing

Feeling so good yet, I never understood the meaning

of the word abstinence sex is my drug

bathing  in your ecstasy, pulling back while  thrusting

tingling all over, my skin screaming softly like a soldier nope I never told ya...

I'M DOUBLE JOINTED

THROBBING PULSATIONS

is this how you act when the moon is out

All my worries have simply taken flight cause this is our

NOCTURNAL PLAY

the hours pass and I become sore yet my body still craves

MORE AND MORE!

grabbing your hand saying "follow me" now on the table your a monster!

the heat of the night melts the moon into the sun

not speaking of it its sealed with a kiss

oh so yuo thought we were finished?

secertly posining your tea and in an instant your eyes close
I never wanted my heart to be exposed
I loved you saying good bye from night to day
SIMPLY THIS WAS OUR NOCTURNAL PLAY ♥

FROM A TO Z

The alphabet and I have alot in common...for you see each letter in the alphabet describes me

A Abra kadabra I've penned this poem amusing my audience with my magical abilities using only my pen constantly making enemies.

B my body and brain connected as one both filled with unspoken words,unfilled prescription bottles and dreams that aren't being tempted again.

C For Chris the man my mom married for reasons beyond my knowing.

D dis nasty feeling inside of my stomach

E for evil the way it seduces me

F fuck them ALL! I just wanna be free

G got weed if so pass the blunt

H hush please be quiet I'm hunting a pesky white rabbit

I for I simply see things before they happen I'm tormenting the world while your busy napping

J just simply killing all of my haters from west to east

K Kermit Burt Dawson Sr. I wish you would rest in peace

L those lips I love to kiss my first and only wiping my tears as they fall loving you cause together we went through it all

M for mother a word I'm not found of but she did give birth

N NEVER EVER backing down I'm to damn stubborn to

O for overdosing on my fantasy nothing will ever be the same again

P pain trapped inside of my head still having nothing to say everything has been said

Q for question marks popping up inside of my head

R Robinson my original last name that stores history

S for suicide my favorite word can you guess why

T for Taja always and forever

U not understanding why you and I can't be together

V for both of my favorites violets and violent

W for sometimes wishing for nothing but silents

X x-rays never lie my mother broke my arm

AND.........

Z zip the body bag I shall never see the dawn

This is me from A to Z